Saturday, January 15, 2011
Clash of the Titans
I am splintered into two separate identities and still trying to figure out which direction to take myself. There is this seductive internal artist that love to explore his attraction to sensual imagery and the professional portrait business photographer who loves to do weddings, senior portraits, and entertainment. Of course living in Montana I must relay on the business side to sustain myself. Somehow the two styles have always seemed to clash and cancel each other. Years ago I built a website to showcase my portrait work but have always struggled with where to draw the lines. I did not want to show nudity on a site that caters toward the general consumer so as to not offend anyone and as a consideration toned down what I actually use yet sort of hinted at what I might also be interested in. Hence my more powerful and provocative work has been hidden for the past ten years and just recently begun to emerge. Do I have to create two separate identities to exist? If I do, how do I remain true to myself when I am a remarkable combination of both? How can I get these two worlds to coexist? Do they? Should they? Is it possible to somehow make money with the more provocative images and not to have to rely on the other? One of my goals of creating this project is to connect somehow, somewhere to someone that can help me get some kind of a show, calendar or publication. Am I doomed because I choose to live in a remote area of the world I love?
Glenn keeps asking me: “What is your target?” The answer keeps coming back to my reasons for beginning this project. To put myself entire self out there and share my creative talents with others. To create a retrospective of my images, of who I am and how I lived my life. You see I have had one of the most remarkable lives anyone could ever imagine and would like to somehow impart my vast experience on others before it is lost.
I want to share a quote from a conversation I had with Jim Ferringer, a sculptural artist and photographer, living in Indiana that hits the nail on the head. “The male nude is still a very taboo subject here in the US but I do believe it is slowly changing here, in a few centuries it might even be as accepted here as it is in Europe…......The male body is as beautiful as the female body and there is no reason it should not be seen as much. I will say there are just too many times when someone post a close up of their manhood taken by a crappy cell phone and post it everywhere, I question this as art and may even set the acceptability of male nudes back. “
VIEW FULL IMAGE: J R #184