Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Wraith of anti-homoerotic gods!?!?!
I set this time up and planned to begin work on opening my life and sharing myself as a photographer of homoerotic art. I now have to question; is there some cosmic force that is trying to stop me, that thinks what I am doing in wrong or immoral? I feel this is the first time I have ever attempted such an endeavor, have planned, noted, journal, and saved money to have this time in particular to focus on myself and my images.
When I began with photography it was simpler. A box that could contain light, a lens that could focus and channel that light, and a strong desire to see how the universe would avail itself to me. I put everything into photography. All my days were filled with wonder, observing the world around me. Watching and waiting for the light to change. Recording movement of time, movement of space, becoming familiar with this concept of what I had to see or say fitting into the frame. I had to develop a relationship with the space and the light and look at it for a lot of angles and possibilities. It was a total exploration. Film was expensive and the processing of it ate lots of time, so you had to really think about what I wanted to say with as few frames a possible. I used to carry a cardboard frame with the aspect ratio cut into that I would pull out and begin to compose with before even pulling out my camera. Now with the age of digital I can shoot a thousand images of the same subject just to get the one that works into my sensibility of style, weight, and balance. It’s extraordinary to work in such a way. It’s extraordinary to explore so many possibilities. When I bring a model in, it’s an interaction; the camera just becomes an extension of that interaction. It’s almost like the camera isn’t there anymore. The models relax and let themselves become comfortable and secure and the session always seems to be over just as we are getting started. I love this response. I think it’s what gives my images such a provocative edge. I often shoot for an hour or two and will walk away with 1200 possibilities. My style has definitely developed and is recognizable. I have shot a lot of images for profiles used on Manhunt and though my name is not on the image, people often come to me and say, oh you’re working with so and so. To me this is extraordinary.